Expectation is the root of all heartache” – Shakespeare

Every since I was in my teens, I craved a perfect love. A relationship that consisted of a loving partner, flowers, gifts and public displays of affections (in real life and on social media). However, love and life has not allowed things to go so smoothly. My six year relationship, with whom I thought was the love of my life, ended. SINGLE AF and a young woman in her early twenties, I needed to find my perfect love desperately.

Working full-time did not help the deed. It is NOT easy to meet people when you are not in school anymore. The biggest source of random, handsome, strangers suddenly evaporated and you are now stuck with the same OLD crowd everyday (literally and figuratively). I tried online dating, hoping to find love, but also to boost my deflated ego. The novelty ended quickly, but not before I recklessly jumped into a relationship… Then, I spiralled into a summer romance as warm as the sun… The fall came, the colours of the leafs changed and my ability to love changed as well… Then December 2016, everything changed.

The quote above is one of my favourite quotes. It helped me understand many, if not, all of my previous relationship failures. I want to document my journey with love in my youth before it slips away into the depth of my memory. My goal for this blog is not only to record, but also to understand. Right now, I am trying to understand love without expectation, unconditional love. But what does that even mean? What is unconditional love?

I do not have an inkling for the answer, but perhaps, time will be able to answer that…

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